Sunday, May 25, 2008

An Open letter about Friendship

It's been a while.


I always believe that a friend is someone who knows all your faults but likes you anyway. It doesn’t mattter whatever flaws you are, one will always be there reminding you what not to do. It is not for himself but for your own sake.

For me a friend is someone you share your thoughts with – personal or whatever under the sun. A friend is someone that can be tested during rough times. A friend is not a friend when he is just there when times of partying or good times.

Age should never be an issue between two friends. It doesn’t mean that though one is older it doesn’t mean that the younger one should compromise to fit his lifestyle or vice-versa. It is always takes two to tango as the clichĂ© goes. You should always be yourself when together. This way, you’ll know how trusting your friendship is.

A friend is someone you can take with anywhere. A person that you like to be around with you , someone you’d like to sit beside you from time to time. Someone you can be very comfortable with.

These are my thoughts on friendship. If you think otherwise, I understand.

Reading what I wrote, I think this friendship that we have is only one-sided. I consider you one of my bestfriend but you don’t.

I’m always adjusting to your mood. A mood you never have whenever you are with your other “friends”. Friends you call them but they never bother to tell you what you should’t do. There are only two possible things: they just don’t care about you or they just don’t give a damn whatever you do to yourself. But you think that’s being a friend. Then, should I ask what kind of friends are they?

You told me all my negative traits you can think of. I accepted it. No question asked. I tried to be what you “want” to be for a friend, but whatever I do, I’m not always good enough. I tried to change just to see if things could get better but you ask me why I’ve change? Seems like whatever I do, your perception of me as a person will never change.

I am not comfortable anymore because most of the times I don’t know what is your current mood. You are so jolly, funny and like a cute child at times but in just a snap your mood change. Little things I do, you have problems with it.

I always say that you can’t choose people that can be your friend. For unknown reason, you pick people eventhough you are not in the same level - in terms of life perceptions, life status, gender, whatever. I am glad and happy that we get along sometimes.

I don’t know if I’m just being needy or trying to change who you are. But I weighed things over and think hard. And I conclude that I am not the problem.

The problem is, I want to be your friend – the best one. I want to be part of your life, but YOU DON’T.

And so, I stop from here. I am glad that you became part of my life – at least for a short period of time.

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